"I am not stable"

Meshmesh 💚

Earlier this week I had a delightful phone conversation with a woman from my past. We caught up on life, and she shared the exciting news of her recent marriage. She expressed how she finally felt settled and stable in her life. I couldn't help but feel genuinely happy for her, knowing that she had achieved her dreams.

During our conversation, she mentioned that she wished for me to find stability soon. However, I responded by explaining that settling down was never my dream. Instead, I yearn to explore the world, immerse myself in different cultures, and continue my studies while traveling. She nodded in understanding, acknowledging that my desire for adventure and exploration had always been a part of who I am.

This led us to ponder the concept of stability. What does it truly mean? Can we find it in marriage, money, or our careers? We delved into a deep discussion, questioning the essence of stability itself.

Stability, we concluded, is about feeling secure, unwavering, and consistent. It is a state of firmness and steadfastness, where things remain constant and unchanging. Curiosity got the better of us, and we turned to our trusty friend, Google, to define stability.

However, I shared my belief that true stability comes from within, rather than relying on external circumstances. It is about being grounded and knowing what we want from life at any given moment. For me, stability is maintaining a positive attitude towards life every single day.

We agreed that if stability does not come from within, nothing can replace it. It is a personal journey that requires introspection and self-work to discover and cultivate.

As the conversation drew to a close, I bid her goodnight, ready to rest and reflect on the profound discussion we had shared. Goodnight, and may we all find the stability we seek, within ourselves.